I've got soul but im not a soldier: Archive

My Babylove

Brittany Faith Burton. That girl is the glue to my life. I love her more than i could ever possibly say. There will never ever be another girl quite like her. Everything she does and the way she does it is so flawless and graceful. She’s the most perfect woman i’ve ever met in my life. Day by day i will show her more and more love. She’s broken down my walls. She’s...

Mar 1st

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wowzer bowser

4 indicted in Tenn. for multimillion insurance fraud By Associated Press 11:27 AM CST, February 27, 2010 NASHVILLE, Tenn. (AP) — The Tennessee Attorney General Office said four people have been indicted for their part in a multimillion dollar insurance fraud. The Tennessean reported that they were connected with the defunct Franklin-based National Foundation of America, which prosecutors say...

Feb 27th

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i feel like a bad girlfriend. blahhhhh. really bad dreams last night. =(

Feb 22nd

Feb 21st

origins of friendship?

seriously what the fuck is wrong with people these days. i literally feel like holes are being blown right through me left and right. I’ve applied for more jobs than i can count. I cant do anything right. Everybody i once called a friend is now just fucking me over daily. New friends are even failing me. I’m so discouraged about everything.

Feb 21st

stress is going to eat my intestines.

im freaking out. its nighttime again. im awake and i dont like it. I’m crying. I miss normality. I miss my babylove. I want to finally breathe without this big huge weight on my chest. I want to feel so free and liberated. Literally tonight i feel like the world is ending. Nothing happened. Nothing bothered me. Just all at once, all of a sudden, everything is too much. I’m...

Feb 16th

Feb 10th

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how could you?

How could you add the guy on facebook that raped me? How could you fucking do that to me? You want to be his friend? GO THE FUCK AHEAD BUT KNOW THAT I WILL BE OUT OF YOUR LIFE SO FAST YOUR HEAD WILL SPIN. Cameron Jones, be warned, you are on my shit list. And you cant even answer your phone. Cause you’re scared of me. Fuck this.

Feb 8th

cardboard.

Im sitting in a sea of boxes. Most things are packed up by now. Packed the hookah today, cant smoke it anyway with how sick i am. Left the xbox 360 out and the rest of my clothes. Working on putting a suitcase together for the road. Morcheeba is blaring in my room. Mom’s so pissed we’re moving back. I hope i can figure things out if she kicks me out soon. Haha but enough of...

Feb 6th

reborn

Why does living feel so fucking good again? literally so so so good. I have found new purpose in life and i have learned what i am supposed to know up to this day in time.

Feb 6th

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Feb 5th

we're gonna make it

im starting to feel it more and more. im sad to say how long i was worried things wouldnt work. Baby i just want to hold you in my arms and sleep. You’re beautiful i love you.

Feb 5th

babygirl

i know its been so long since i wrote good about us. But i love you so much. I love you so so so much. I miss you every single second of the day. I love you with all my heart. Please marry me.

Feb 4th

Feb 2nd

unjust

i had no idea how common military rape was. i swear to god if i was there id punch him for you Ciera. i’d hurt him. please be careful.

Jan 30th

So far this week

I’ve webcamed with two countries. Qatar and Germany. More to come i think. Mom says 22 days before we are home in TN. I feel like i cant wait a whole 22 days. I feel like i’ve done my share of waiting. I’m impatient and i want what i want now. And what i really want is a job. Baby and i are doing better. fingers crossed. i love you.

Jan 27th

throwdown

going climbing today. i feel like there’s a lot i need to just work out with myself. most things are better. its just a daily process of writing things down and stepping back to see if they look good or work out. I’ve got confirmation on coming back to Nashville. It’s good but I’m not smiling like i should be. I want to be.

Jan 25th

wh whw whaha fuck

maybe not?

Jan 25th

super trooper

I’ve decided that the single most way that i know how to support someone is by writing letters. I’ve made a new goal for myself for this new year. write one letter to Iraq everyday. number each of them. letters can be handwritten or emailed. Letters will begin tonight Jan 24th 2010 and will end whenever i get the date in June. so basically give or take six months. i really...

Jan 25th